Feb. 18th, 2007 08:06 pm
sillimarilli: (frosted flower)
[personal profile] sillimarilli
Well, here I am again, posting about loss and love. Some of you know secondhand about my cat, Pukha. He earned his name as a kitten - named for that Irish spirit that inhabits animals and inspires them to mischief. Today, Pukha died in a sudden and unexpected accident. Apparently, he had gotten spooked by my neighbor's dog and raced up a tree, only to lose his hold and fall.

He may be "only" an animal, but he has lived with me for the past 8 years and generously shared both his mischief and affection with me. He was big-boned and fuzzy-furred, a big old baby who put my legs to sleep whenever he laid in my lap. He loved to sit outside and roam a little, but never too far and always quickly gamboling home if he knew I called. I shall miss his picking his way over and dragging his belly fur across my head when I've laid down to sleep. I shall miss his patting at the bedcovers until I held them up and let him in so he could tunnel around. He always eventually ended up spooned up against me with his head poking outside the covers under my chin. I shall miss watching him stalk slowly through the monkey-grass outside and finding him hidden beneath its green surface when it was time to come inside. I shall miss his crying at the door to be let out and coming home to find every cabinet door pried open. I shall miss him sitting on the sink every morning I get ready for work and every night I get ready for bed. I will miss him racing me up the stairs just for the chance I might have a hand free while I brushed my teeth. I shall miss just how soft and downy he was and that last sighing purr he would give right before he relaxed into sleep.

The place seems too quiet and too still, and I am quite heartbroken.

Date: 2007-02-19 02:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] just-ann-now.livejournal.com
My heart aches for you - we, too, lost a pet in a similar freakish accident - but what lovely pictures! That thick, golden fur must have been a delight to bury your fingers in. You can remember her in joy, and we will remember her with you.

Date: 2007-02-19 02:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] just-ann-now.livejournal.com
Him. Him. Him. *head desk*

Date: 2007-02-19 02:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sillimarilli.livejournal.com
That thick, golden fur must have been a delight to bury your fingers in.

Yep. Almost downy enough to spin into yarn, if only it were a little longer. I've tied off and clipped a lock of it to keep.

Thanks Ann.

Date: 2007-02-19 02:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lady-branwyn.livejournal.com
I am so sorry to hear this. What a beautiful kitty he was, and what a great personlity. It is their odd little quirks which endear them to us. I had a kitty who used to listen for when I woke up in the morning. The moment the alarm went off, she would charge up the stairs, clear the footboard of the bed like a thoroughbred taking a gate, then run in ecstatic circles on my face. And that is what I missed the most after she was gone (actually, she was about the same age as Pukha when she died).

I will miss him racing me up the stairs just for the chance I might have a hand free while I brushed my teeth.
Aw, what a love bug. I am so sad for you.

Date: 2007-02-19 03:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sillimarilli.livejournal.com
LOL! What a great cat! "Mom! I've *MISSED* you. All night long, you were asleep."

Thanks Lady B. :)

Date: 2007-02-19 03:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] merithehobbit.livejournal.com
:( Oh I am so sorry! *HUGS* Kitties do get a special spot in our hearts, this makes me so sad. I just love cats, can't have any because of allergies but I am jealous of those who can, they bring such a happy, furry pleasure to us mere humans.

I'm glad you have pictures of him, what a lovely, snuggly little tank. :D Thank you for sharing some of his personality, what a joy to have called him yours (or he called you his!). May he find rest and lots of adventure in that fully staffed, cat heaven in the sky! :)

Date: 2007-02-19 03:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sillimarilli.livejournal.com
Thanks, Meri.

lovely, snuggly little tank.

Yep, exactly. He'd curl up on my chest and I could barely breathe... and barely an ounce of fat on him. His littermate brother who was a little more than half his weight bossed him around. Big ole putty tat.

Date: 2007-02-19 04:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] edoraslass.livejournal.com
What a gorgeous, gorgeous kitty. And is he -- YIMing in that last pic?

I'm so sorry - my thoughts are with you.

Date: 2007-02-19 04:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sillimarilli.livejournal.com
And is he -- YIMing in that last pic?

I believe he is... supervising. :P He loved to sit in my lap and just kind of hang out when I was at the laptop. Made it a little hard to see the screen sometimes, though.

I'm so sorry - my thoughts are with you.

Thanks EL.

Date: 2007-02-19 07:44 am (UTC)
lj_stowaway: (Hugs)
From: [personal profile] lj_stowaway
Oh honey, I am so sorry! There are no words, only tears. My heart is breaking for you. To lose him so suddenly and in such a way. Your beautiful boy.


Wonderful pictures of him - that last has always been my favorite.

Date: 2007-02-20 02:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sillimarilli.livejournal.com
Yeah, my big beautiful boy. *sigh* I took him to the pet crematorium today. My dad gave me a lovely walnut lidded bowl for Christmas that he had turned back in 2000 and I think I'll keep Pukha's ashes in there.


*hugs back hard* Thanks G.

Date: 2007-02-20 02:25 pm (UTC)
lj_stowaway: (Dreaming)
From: [personal profile] lj_stowaway
That sounds *perfect* - very fitting. I've always made a handwoven blanket as a burial shroud, but your way is better.

Hang in there, dear. {{{hugs}}} (I still tear up every time I think of it, I can't imagine how it is for you!)

Big Kitty

Date: 2007-02-19 01:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dancindeby.livejournal.com
I had a cat his size named Rambo, for obviously reasons. He too had a littler mate half his size I called Mo. Rambo's taile was so thick and fluffy I always threatened to make a rearview mirror ornament out of it. ;) *sigh* Puhka was no more just an animal than Rambo. Friends are friends regardless of how many legs they have. All I can give now are virtual hugs, but take a raincheck for real ones and redeem it this summer.

Re: Big Kitty

Date: 2007-02-20 02:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sillimarilli.livejournal.com
All I can give now are virtual hugs, but take a raincheck for real ones and redeem it this summer.

I'll take you up on that, Debs. :*

Date: 2007-02-19 03:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] artfuldodger.livejournal.com
*hugs* I'm so sorry. It's tough to lose a furry companion, and my thoughts are with you. *hugs*

Date: 2007-02-20 02:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sillimarilli.livejournal.com
*hugs back*

Thanks Pip.

Date: 2007-02-22 02:43 pm (UTC)
ext_2125: (Rilla)
From: [identity profile] sterlingirl.livejournal.com
Oh Silli. My heart aches for your loss. What a gorgeous boy he was. He sounds like he was a wonderful friend. It is so hard to lose a friend - regardless of size and furriness.

Rilla and I are sending headbutts and hugs your way. *HUGS*

Date: 2007-02-25 09:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sillimarilli.livejournal.com
Thanks, Silver. *hugs Silver* *scritchies Rilla*
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